Sunday, September 18, 2011
One of my recent favorite things, an orchestra of giant umbrellas. Transform. An amazing feat of engineering and technology linked to religion and spirituality. Alhamdulillah, I was blessed to have the opportunity to spend the first third of Ramadan in the holy land, the first day in Madinah and the rest in Mekah. The second half in Kuala Terengganu, a place which now seems to be for solitude, work and play. The final part was spent at home with my kids and family. Which led to a most unusual raya for me. That's another story.
As I sit here waiting for the next event to loom, my thoughts keep going back to recent events. Trying to recall and analyze. Time seems to have flown, it has actually....
The irony of it all. In the midst of many I feel alone and neglected. Not one but three yet none is here. Fancy being a loner yet suddenly can't stand being in solitude. That which should be sweet left a lingering bitterness. Do not question why, do not attempt understanding, just let be.
Am beginning to hate the notification sound from the SGSII because inevitably the message I was hoping for did not come in. Practicality and sensibility has gone. Patience morphed into anger and very soon sadness. There are just so much that can be done. Much more that can't, therein lies the poison in the arrow. Totally dislike not being in control. Dear God, renew my strength, patience and wisdom, please.