Friday, March 07, 2008

For Bbugs



There comes a time when all I need is a sounding board to which I can unleash all my thoughts and empty my mind. A sounding board that just absorbs with nary a fear of it being used against me. For we sometimes do and think about unthinkable and unacceptable things. A shrink, psychiatrist or therapist fits the bill but will cost money on top of the fact that they do it as a job not a buddy.

I was lucky to have such a sounding board. Only catch is that its half a world away. Separated by time, distance and now changing lifestyle. There's so much I want to tell, to offload, to air the furthest corner of my mind. Just have to hold on a bit longer I suppose. Some might say, come on; speak to your wife, best friend, mommy or daddy. Yes, most things can be discussed with those close to you but some can never, ever be revealed unless you are ready to face some unexpected consequences. I learned that the hard way which reinforces the need for the sounding board.

Maybe circumstances will enjoin us again soon. In the mean time, this is for you. A little pristine white flower in the middle of harsh bushes doing nothing yet its presence soothes the soul.

5 comments:

J.T. said...

Sometimes we have just one trusted sounding board and will wait (if we can) to unleash our inner most thoughts on this person. Hang in there, my friend.

psst ... would you consider another sounding board? :)

Apandi said...

So true. Position is always open but the selection criteria is a tough one.... he he he

Adam said...

Not sure whether you are referrign to your blog but in my case, my blog is definitely my sounding board. However, it has become less so as I am not anonymous anymore.
Nice blog.

Apandi said...

adam, neither am I. It is a real person. Thanks.

maria said...

Hi Capt,

It's been a long time since my last comment on your blog. Very touching piece. I know how you feel and can just imagine...